The real answer to the common question of "How are you?" will always be "not fine" . . . I am not fine. Would you be fine if the love of your life was torn away from you and you were forced to live out your marriage in two separate countries, not able to do even ordinary everyday things together? Or would you be fine if you were told that that special loved one would be allowed back with you and then had that joy ripped away from you? At times my heart physically begins aching to be with my husband, but there is no way for me to get to him.
After receiving word that our marriage visa was most definitely denied, we were optimistic about the next step. The waiver process seemed like it would go smoothly and we were ready to get it done and wrap all of this up!
Reality is, the waiver is going to take a while to put together. Information is needed to prove my extreme need to have my husband here with me in the States and it is not definite that the waiver will be granted.
Throughout this entire series of unfortunate events I have never really gotten angry. I have spent a lot of time feeling sorry for myself, feeling lonely, feeling confused, and feeling extremely sad, but never angry. The more I consider our situation and the honest individuals we are, the more I know I should be angry about what has happened to us, but never do.
The way I see it, God knew this was coming and He knows when, or if, it will end. I cannot seem to find meaning in all of the lonely nights, missed opportunities, and tears shed, but I do know that with God, there is always a purpose with the pain. He will see us through. . .
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