I'm Back!

Here I am, back in America, back in my hometown, and back in my old bedroom. I am surrounded by boxes full of memories of a future that has been put on hold. More emotions and memories cloud my head than I can hold sometimes.

There are more days where I feel sorry for myself and want to crumble into pieces than there are days when I feel strong and confident about where my life is at. I have no idea how wives with husbands in the army do this. I am confused as to why God would choose me for this particular journey.

The concern and prayers from family and friends continues to be encouraging, but I do get exhausted from acting like I am okay and putting on a strong face for the world. I feel as if no one will ever fully understand the difficult time we are in and I am anxious for this time to become a distant memory. I am back at work now and I feel a little better about the situation now that I have a fairly steady income and have a small purpose in society again.

I want to take a moment to encourage husbands and wives to show gratitude, forgiveness, and love to their husband or wife whenever they can. Do not take the hugs and kisses, late night movies, and dinner conversations for granted. Tell them how much you love them and be thankful that they are there.