Reflection

Here I am again! I left the hustle and bustle of my little world in Woodstock, Virginia and plunged right back into a slow and simple pace of Dutch living. This alone time is cleansing for me after so many fast paced weeks of work one after the other, leaving me feeling drained and exhausted. It is time for a spring renewal!

Greeted by beautiful tulips, thank you Oma and Opa!

I just got back from a brisk walk on this cool, spring afternoon. I have to admit, this time here has me a bit conflicted. Having been here a few short months ago, I spent the majority of my time convincing myself I was strong enough to build a life here with my husband. I pictured myself thriving in this environment and put together a plan to help myself succeed. We bought furniture and appliances, we made goals and dreams together, and we built a foundation here.

I did not expect it to be so hard to say good-bye to a chapter in life that was filled with so much pain, confusion, uncertainty, and fear. This is my ninth trip to the Netherlands since we embarked on our original journey back in 2014. I have spent nearly twenty-one months here collectively and this place, over time, became a part of who I am. 

It has been an amazing journey that brought us to where we are today. I have learned more about myself and this world in the months I have spent here than I ever would have if I this had never happened. Now, in a couple weeks, all the memories we have made here will be just that, memories- incredible experiences and adventures that we will have to look back on for all the years to come.

I cannot help but feel so overwhelmingly grateful for having been brought out of a great valley, onto the top of a mountain as we now look into the future!

Until next time, be encouraged today in knowing that wherever He leads you, He will not leave you. Wherever He calls you, He will make a way. Do not fret in trying to figure out the details of this life, just take His hand as He leads you on this journey of life we are blessed to live. 

In June, Pieter will visit the U.S again. He will be there for just a few weeks to enjoy summer weather in the States, to volunteer at Brethren Woods, and to catch up with friends again. He will return in the fall to live there full-time. We are currently in search of a short-term rental for the month of June (June 5th-June 29^th). Something within 35 miles of Woodstock, so I can still commute to work. Nothing fancy, just a space we can call our own for a short time as we continue this transition. Contact me via facebook or email (lydia.croom@gmail.com) if you know of any affordable rentals in the area.